I feel nothing
Nothing at all when you touch me
At least, I think I do
I’m not sure
This wasn’t how I planned it
I wanted to make you happy
It wasn’t meant to go this far
I had to pretend
You were excited
I couldn’t disappoint
How could I tell you?
How could I tell you that I feel nothing when you touch me?
How could I?
I loved you—-
Love….loving you would mean feeling something when you touch me right?
I cared,
I still care for you
That’s why I pretend
It wasn’t meant to go this far
Now I don’t know
I don’t know what I feel when you touch me
I don’t know how it feels to want you
How it feels to have you bring me pleasure
I don’t know
I can’t go back
I can’t turn back
I already have all the moans and groans at the tip of my lips
I know how to move even before I feel you near
I know how to want me to move
What you want my body to say
It wasn’t meant to go this far
It was just for a while
Written by: ADEBANKE FALADE